Cheat or not to cheat?

I think every person needs a cheat day. However, my new cheat days are not what I used to consider cheat days. Now, my cheat day is one scoop of ice cream and half of a cupcake. Although they were good, I realized after that I didn't even really want it. Truly and honestly, it is a mind game. I can live without it. But, sometimes my mind likes to tell me I can't. 

I've really been slacking on the workouts. But, been doing fairly well on food. This last week I started school up again and I'm trying to find the balance of wife, mom, student, and me. It's not easy. Actually, it's not easy at all. 

I think I needed a week to just figure out everything and I am about to head outside on this gorgeous day to go for a 2.5 mile run. My heart is still into my goals, but my head is making too many lists of "to-dos" that are hindering my ultimate goals. 

This new life requires JJ and me to be a little less comfortable which isn't always easy. We enjoy our lazy Sundays and in bed by 9 on weeknights. Most days we are exhausted by 7 and ready to just call it a night. I want to change, I have the will to change, and I'm not giving up. Just realizing how much work it requires not only from me, but from JJ too. 

Back to the cheat days, at this point...they aren't worth it.